Every time I turn around...I find another thing that disappoints me. I hate this!!! I find myself finding more things that annoy me than things that inspire and motivate me. I am 21!!!! TWENTY FRIGGIN' ONE!!! W.T.F. is wrong with me? My mom tells me its because I have low iron and I'm anemic and I need to take better care of myself instead of thinking about other things.
She is so right. I need to get a second job so I can stop being so stressed about money. I need to get back on my exercise schedule...stick to it and take all of my vitamins (EVERYDAY!). I need to start making lists. I used to make lists allllll the time.
Lists like: what I am grateful for, What I love about myself, What I could improve about myself and then make a plan so I can improve my faults, What I love about my husband and our life together, What I love about my current job.
Just something on a piece of paper that solidifies my desire to appreciate life more. Shit maybe I'll start my list RIGHT NOW!
LIST no. ONE:
What I love about myself:
1. I wear my heart on my sleeve. That is NOT a bad thing!
2. I'm compassionate. I empathize.
3. I give advice when asked and I always tell the person that I'm advising exactly what I think! no sugarcoating. No games.
4. I don't play mind games well. I don't like mind games. But I am a fast learner, so if that's the game ANYONE wants to play I'd be a great opponent.
5. I try to help myself before I ask for help.
6. If I get hurt (especially by someone I love with all of my heart) I am quick to say "bye" but also quick to drop my grudge if I feel like the person SERIOUSLY wants to be a better person or wants to apologize for how they've wronged me.
7. If I am upset I have a pity party and then I try to get over it or find a way to move past whatever it is that is getting to me. (like now!)
8. I love my mom...and my family...and my mother in law and sister in law...and the fact that these people in my life makes me feel like I can do WHATEVER I want to do!
9. I'm goal oriented.
10. I'm a giver, not a taker.
11. My mom raised me to be polite but not some one that can be walked all over.
WHEW
I already feel a little better!
No quote or horoscope or recipe tonight! just positive thoughts.
-Shalenna-
